Up to now I’ve been behaving as a free-spirited individual….  No worries in the world and just going along with the flow, but not being very happy…  I figured it could be due to a lack of discipline. Then I began to think what I could change in me in order to feel fulfilled.  Finally one day it dawned on me that in order to be successful at something I had to follow through to the end and change from within as well as my surroundings.  In other words, I woke up…  

I began by examining and being honest with myself.  I found I was doing things I didn’t feel very proud off.  Things needed to change…  I figure I would start small and then move to more difficult tasks.  My first undertaking was – To stop biting my nails…  I’ve been doing this ever since I can remember, but I was determined to stop… I decided to get fake nails and use fillings in order to avoid sticking my finger in my mouth.   Finally!  Found something that worked…  The urge to bite on the nails ended…  I won’t lie, it was difficult and it took me quite a while to finally release that absurd urge, but I finally accomplished it.  Now I can go without the fake nails and get a manicure instead.

 Then, I moved to my second discipline – I started meditating in my early 20’s.  I was dating a man at the time that read and studied constantly and he gave me a book called, There is a River” which spoke about a physic name Edgar Cayce.  I got interested right there and then in metaphysics…  I joined the Edgar Cayce Study Group and began meditating.  Didn’t last very long since I had no disciple what-so-ever and I only meditated once a week when I attended the meetings.  I loved meditating and the feeling it gave me, but it had to be done daily in order to get results.  I couldn’t stick with it.  Throughout the years I’ve tried it a couple of times, but always failed at it…  I would never follow through.  After I finished my with my first discipline, I decided this would be a good one for me to try next…  I have accomplished almost the impossible – I have successfully meditated daily for the last six months and know I will continue this grand task until the end of my existence.  It gives me peace and understanding and I’m extremely happy with this outcome.  Now I know I can do anything I set my mind to achieve…

My third discipline has been a bit more challenging…  Writing is my passion, but I have no formal training.  I’m an accountant and all I’ve ever known is numbers.  That did not deter me though.  I decided to give it shot…   I first started journaling and have done this for quiet some time… Then, I got inspired and wrote a few poems.  I was ready to continue and set-up the blog.  Now, I write anything that comes to mind… I do want perfection, but that comes with time.  I will have to take some courses or read a few writing books in order to accomplish this which I’m sure it’ll be just fine.  So far, I’m almost at the third month and still going strong at it…  I have since joined a Meet-up on blogging and I’ve been trying the weekly challenges in order to perfect my site.  I’m still not where I want to be, but I’m hopeful that soon l will catch-up…  

Lastly, my last discipline…  Real tough one for me…  To lose all the weight I’ve gained in the last seven to eight years.  I’ve gone from a size six to a fourteen…  And, I’m barely fitting into that size…  It’s not that I dislike myself, but I would like to feel sexier and much happier at a lower size…  I will probably feel healthier too…  I have aches and pains where I didn’t have it before.  It’s not even a matter of looking better, but feeling better…  I’m working myself up to this one, but I’m not quiet there yet…  After the New Year, I do plan to join Weight Watchers and give it a try.  So far, I’ve stuck with everything I set out to accomplish; therefore, I’m hoping this discipline will not be too difficult once I start it.  I am determined though to lose most of the weight and feel and look better…

Who knows what next…  I know now I can do anything…  But I also want to be an inspiration to all… We all have the ability to do what we set out to achieve…  We can be anything we want…  Ask yourself – What’s stopping you???

About lumar1298

Love to read, write, and meditate. I Also have a creative side. I enjoy crafting and designing and when I want action, then I dance.
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4 Responses to DISCIPLINE…

  1. Sonia says:

    You are a busy little bee!! I’m glad to see you’re realizing your dreams, and I too believe reading about others life challenges and goals helps us – so you keep going! The thing I find when reading your blog is that I want to keep reading, so trained or not you’re doing something right!;)


    • lumar1298 says:

      I am so glad you feel this way. Not only is the blog for me to learn how to release whatever I feel inside, but I hope also to inspire those that need a little uplifting… There is always hope at the end of a rainbow… See you soon…


  2. writeintent1 says:

    Inspiring and very well written post!


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